Wednesday, September 24, 2008

On my way, sorta

So, here I am sitting at SeaTac airport waiting for my flight. I ended up getting here pretty early but that's OK. It gives me a little time to unwind after the work day.

I'm looking forward to the weekend with my mother, but I also have mixed feelings about the trip. Believe it not, I've not traveled anywhere on my own since Jayson and I met 11.5 years ago. It's a different experience but it's OK. I definitely need the trip to help myslef relax and unwind even for just a few days, and I think it will accomplish that. I'm looking forward to the time with Mom and she is also looking forward to it.

I just wish Jayson were more comfortable with the idea. He sees it asme running away from him, when in reality it's me just doing something nice for myself. I don't tend to do lots of things for myself so I cherish the things I do deem Todd-worthy (wow, that sounds arrogant!). I'm usually the one who gives up things for others so to have my mother give up a weekend and get me dow is a really nice gift. I'm hoping that Jayson will see that he can be OK wth time apart and that something for me isn't anything against him.

Now, what to do with the other hour and a quarter to kill before I can get n the plane...


The JAFer said...

I've always wanted you to have the very best in life in all regards, I hope you know that. The fear of mine is the insecurity I have in how people started prodding you to leave your now ex, and I fear that path happening again. This depression of mine hasn't been exactly easy on any of us.

I want and believe you should have nice things in life and I do my best to see that you do. I'm aware that I'm not the best at it, but I do try. I hope the weekend brings you some relaxation.

Romach said...

We all need some down time buddy. It will be good for you and your mom to spend some quality time together. But its never a bad thing for people to have some time to themselves either. Sometimes it helps re charge ourselves when we have a little bit of time where we don't have to worry about anything else only our selves. Thats not selfish in any way, in fact its whats needed more times than enough. I hope you have a lovely time. See you soon :-)